Random Mismatch

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Hello Tumblr, I’ve been scaringly absent! This is because I has no interwebs at la home! I’m typing this at work. I tried to access Tumblr using my phone last night, but it hated me ;w;
(Pretty much the same way my work internet hates me. It’s SLOW. In that I type faster than the letters appear on…

Exciting! Do you think I could move in with you? I don’t take up much room, and I’ll sleep with the kitten C”: That’s so cool! Please show me lots of photos C:

YES! All of that yes! I will make photos when stuff is kinda done??? haha it’s all kinda not how I like it yet… like last night making dinner I was panicking and running around like crazy lol XD

But yes! You can come live in my home with my kitten and my invisible friends :3 And you can sleep wherever you like?! Including the toilet :3

Hello Tumblr, I’ve been scaringly absent! This is because I has no interwebs at la home! I’m typing this at work. I tried to access Tumblr using my phone last night, but it hated me ;w;
(Pretty much the same way my work internet hates me. It’s SLOW. In that I type faster than the letters appear on the screen. Yup. In this day and age owo)

Anyway, some things happening:

- I completely hate half of chapter 3 of Whatever. I’d say mission accomplished in making it suck lol! I still need to finish that chapter and I have 6 days for it and I can’t really write it anywhere. Hooray! Maybe I’ll go sit in this restaurant of a department store down town. Because it has free internet?! XD reasons. yup. BUT!

- I moved into my new home. Been living there since Saturday :O and shit is happening! I need to finish putting stuff up and unpacking! Which leaves me busy or stressed out, whichever my body prefers.

- I’m gonna get a kitten!!! <3 they were born last night!! It’s from a coworker. He mentioned it and I was like, yes please now I can! (he had a litter before). So I also need to make preparations for that 8D

There’s just so much going on??? I’m really excited and scared and worried and stressed and happy! Basically, this is a whole new life for me! So much to do! I need to make new to do lists!

And I need to write. Gah deadlines! (even if I put them up myself… shit.)

So I use my story to procrastinate on my work and I use my work to procrastinate on my story! :D

Seem like a good work/life balance to me.

Chapter 3 of Whatever is now 2084 words according to Yarny (the web application I write in).

It’s coming along good. Actually the main portion of my plan is down on paper. Only Ren had to be Ren, so he totally didn’t follow my initial plans. The bastard!

Though I suppose he can, seeing as it was probably one of the worst parts of his life. Now I just need to decide what else to put in chapter 3 haha. Well I have some time for that.

My story is now in September and chapter 4 will start in April (funny enough). Because Japanese school apparently start in April. Yes chapter 4 starts with a school start. Just need to decide what to do in the month leading up to that. I don’t have any plans D:

Maybe Ren’s gonna get kicked out of school… that would be even more funny, though… not very practical. Yeah. I will figure it out, but I think I’ll give my brain a break for now…

Maybe I’ll go write some non-fiction blog articles for this here tumblr. You know, because I have nothing better to do than procrastinate on that with work :D

Here I am again, from my cosy mattress on the floor. For one of the last nights!

Made instant progress today!! Called for my furniture… The ones you sit on, lol! And apparently my couch and chair are gonna be a while, but the dining chairs are in. So I asked if they could be delivered already. Well I’m getting them Saturday!

Then after work from say 16:30 till 21:00 minus dinner… My parents and I worked our asses off to make my home livable!!

The clothes closet was being a pain, literally and figuratively! So yeah, my parents were mostly fighting with it, but I held up one of the doors with my toes, unpleasant at best.

Anyway!!! Clothes are in both closets, books are in the book case. With various stacks to get some curled books straight again. (gonna have a word with the storage company on that one… Something to do with water damage >.>)
Lots of stuff has been moved around. Mostly lots of boxes are gone!!

Computer desk is in one piece and yeah the living room is mostly… Livable!

So tomorrow ehm, well need to visit my storage and do some left over stuff. Then Saturday my mom’s cousin and her boyfriend are coming over to put up all the lamps and some misc stuff. And it’ll be moving over from my parents home! And the chairs will arrive!!

Oh boy oh boy oh boy!!! You don’t wanna know how excited I am with all this!!! Damn! It’s almost time!

I found a beautiful solution! Ren is gonna have sex earlier in his life and then everything works out just find! I don’t see how my story works legally… but we go with he’s just doing illegal shit because he can. You know, because fiction. Oh the illegal part isn’t actually the sex, if I remember my research correctly.

But now that I’m writing I’m gonna have to throw out 999 words. Yes 999 words that were chapter 4… or rather half of chapter 4, as far as I’ve written chapter 4. I wrote that chapter long ago and I totally don’t remember where I was going with it and so it doesn’t work anymore in the whole story. It’s a bit sad.

So now chapter 4 is going to be the chapter 3 that already existed and chapter 3 will be rewritten from scratch. And I need to finish chapter 3 by April 18th (let’s pretend I’m on a publishing deadline, just for fun). Panick please!

Luckily I have chapter 3, or at least it’s story, in my head for quite awhile now… so I know how to go about it! Now to not get stuck!! Please give me focus time, kthnx.

Now I just need enough money to make it each month with expenses and quit my job -nods-.

So I just pretty much figured out that my story kinda doesn’t work. I mean that I finished chapter 2, and that chapter 3 sorta exsisted already and that they are inconsistent now.

In the decision that this story was going to suck anyway, I feel compelled to just make a note: “Plothole, please ignore it, it will be fixed later”…. but ehm, I figured the whole basis of that development doesn’t work without that inconsistency.

This means I probably have to reconsider chapter 2… booo… lol or the events of chapter 3 need to be moved in the time line.

Sounds like that better option, but not so much because of… time.

If Ren is suppose to meet Ryo in school and as it stands he does so in his last year of school… yeah you get the idea.

I could of course throw everything upside down, but that means rewriting everything from the start.

Story writing can be such a pain! I think I’m just gonna come up with a really clever solution by approaching this as a complex puzzle haha.

Today I’m committing myself to….

1. Write at my story “Whatever” and completely suck at it!

2. Draw crap that sucks.

3. Do one large effort to suck as much as possible at the above.

This way I cannot fail, and I cannot disappoint (me or others). This way I can have fun without feeling things need to be perfect, after all they need to suck. Turning off my inner perfectionist will be a lot better for my confidence.

BTW I’m also gonna get rid of lots of my stuff I don’t need/want anymore. Because that happens when you live at your parents for almost a year with about 1/5th of your stuff… wtf did I need everything else for?!

There were a lot of posts or series of posts… Ehm content ideas I guess, today. Floating through my head, I half remember them too.

I just only have motivation to write on them when my brain goes into crazy creative mode and the words just come spilling out in my thoughts. You know when I’m at work and don’t really have the time/opportunity to do it.

Or when I’m reading an article and my mind decides its much safer to read the article than to take action. I can’t blame it for that.

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I give up… I should leave the internet alone until I’m fully recovered from stress.

Especially that horrible, horrible nightmare I had last night :|

Like I was crying and couldn’t quite go back to sleep???

Telling myself it was just a dream wasn’t quite helping my feelings.

I’m still a bit shaken up by it. -sigh-

So yes, I should stay away and not try to use my stressed out brain for awhile.

I want to have art involving babies!! Human babies, animal babies, don’t care!!

Anything better than this moving stress rollercoasterride D: it should be gone by the end of tomorrow. Which means I’m super full of adrenaline right now and can’t sleep! Yup!

I need love, understanding and hugs, but most of all sleep!! -falls over-

Also someone should’ve advised against me watching Shutter Island tonight! Can’t believe neither of my parents said it might be a bad idea.

You know what’s funny? Coworkers pointing out you’re working later than usual. It’s even funnier to think they wanna have a reason. There must be a valid reason for me still sitting there.

“Yeah ehm, I’m in the middle of this Cracked.com article and I first wanna finish that and the other three articles I also have open.” doesn’t quite seem like a valid reason. But at the end (last 5 or 10 min) of my work day I get a little bit sick of my boring, but nicely stress less job. So I think instead I’ll just read an article. That turns into 5 or so articles when I don’t feel like getting up. Other days it’s half an article, save the link and go home.

Either way it’s funny to not really have an excuse or reason. I usually say, yeah it happens sometimes. Which makes them lost for words and that works out perfectly as they’re often on their way out themselves.

So when I finally did leave and all that…. Well it was quite nice to come home and have my dad be all like. Yeah it’s done. The floor is clean.
And then all three of us were sorta done with this new house of mine and decided to just not go there this evening.

This means dad and I have to go earlier tomorrow morning. Hooray! But the floor is being placed by pros so we get to stand around and watch and answer any questions I guess.

Plinths… that was unexpected. Anyway… they’re now painted.

I’ve been having a lot on my head and forgetting everything. I think I don’t sleep well either :|

Anyway, stuff is cleaned, and for now the floor needs to be cleaned today. Tomorrow the floor is gonna be placed.

Things are totally hurrying along. I don’t really wanna work till after I’ve moved, but oh well ;w;

Lately I’m feeling that I’m doing everything wrong. There’s no evidence safe from normal human errors, I’m doing fine. I just have this nagging feeling things are gonna go to hell.

Then my coworkers today mentioned repeatedly if I had gotten enough sleep, because I looked like hell.
What they didn’t know was that I had a nightmare right before waking up and having to go to work. A nightmare covering 5 years worth of regret and pain. So that probably didn’t help my looks.

Anyway. Apartment status:
- walls all done painted
- floor of old apartment moved
- car ordered for moving day
- dad finished first layer of paint for something I don’t know the English name of -lazy-

Tomorrow I will have cooking equipment. I still need to call for someone to put the gas tap in… Idk

Friday people are gonna place floors.

Sunday is big moving day.

In summary, I’m exhausted and I’m gonna be exhausted further down the road.

Good night world!

I’m currently crashed in my bed with several physical stuff to worry about. Hard work, hard pain.

But I promised reports, so you’ll have them! Otherwise I’ll be off the Internet radar at all times… Okay most of the time.

So today and most of yesterday as well I guess, I wasn’t feeling very well. Turns out I was probably being a dork and being dehydrated. Yeah… Because today after I actually started drinking after three walking trips in the sun… I suddenly felt better!!

I feel a bit guilty for letting my parents do all the heavy work… But I simply can’t handle the weight and all that. Besides that I do a really bad job at painting walls anyway!!!

So I just did errands and painting the little things the big paint rollers couldn’t handle. Oh and I hung around with a droopy face not feeling well.

Trip to the supplies store for something to cover the kitchen with. Stuff we had was… Not quite equipped to do that lol! It was waaaayyyyy too short. Oh and I also bought a screen for my shower for the heck of it.

Then a trip to the supermarket right after. I think that did me in. It’s a 10 min walk to get there. Sooo outside for 30 min in the sun in a short period of time without shades or something. Yup. I bought bread for lunch pretty much.

Last trip, again to the supplies store. This time I wore shades lol! Lots of items needed to be bought. So yeah. All these small things!

So yeah, I feel useless 8D and tomorrow we need more stuff from the supplies store. Can’t ever have enough stuff!!